* Question: Acharya Ji, I am afraid of you. The reasons are : *
First reason is that of authority.
And second reason is I want something from you and there is no total trust in you.
And I am afraid of that being found out.
Is there more to it?
Acharya Prashant : You are not afraid of authority. It’s just that you are trusting and investing in wrong authority. You have become your own authority and that’s not really a good authority to bank upon.
It’s not authorities that you resist. It’s just that you don’t know, who the right authority is.
Aren’t you following somebody? Whom do you follow?
There is an authority.
Is that authority trustworthy?
Inquire. Inquiry is the way. You don’t need to have trust on me or something. Just pay attention. Trust can sometimes blind people. So, better listen. I never never ask people to agree. In fact, if somebody agrees, I take that as a red sign. I just ask them to listen.
* Question: It’s also a sort of admission and it has a question attached to it.*
I had a insight after which any question that arises inside my head is basically exposes ego trip. Every single question is an ego trip, which prevents me from asking it. All the questions that I have asked so far in this particular camp have been largely ego trips because I want to elevate my status in your eyes and in the eyes of everybody present here.
So, I am aware of that these questions are ego trips and something inside me just says that its futile, questioning in that sense. But listening to you is a different ball game. So, how do I reconcile the situation?
Acharya Prashant: You don’t need to do anything, you are just getting unnecessarily excited. Something nice is happening with you, and that’s getting you just too excited, like a boy. A boy are you. Nice things are happening, let them happen. Why do you want to say something about it?
There is no need to say all this.
* Question: Because every single thing that I do, every single thing not just questioning, the way that I am sitting right now, whatever I do is exposes ego trip.*
Acharya Prashant : That’s all right, fine. So, what?
You see, I saw a movie. There was this lady, waiting for a beloved. And she has been waiting since long, long, long. And every time, there is a faint knocks on the door, she rushes to the door and tries to see, who has come. And one night, there is this knock, she goes, and she sees that the beloved is standing, and she is so awestruck that she forgot to open the door. She is so damn excited, that she runs back to the bedroom and hides her face in the pillow.
You are just too excited.
Open the door and let it remain ajar. You have been waiting for something since very long, now that you get a glimpse of it, you are getting worked-up.
There is no need to get worked-up.
It’s easy, it could have happened anytime, it’s a coincidence that it’s happening right now. Nothing extremely special is happening.
Relax.
* Question : I want something from you, and if I don’t trust you fully, I feel I have* been dishonest to you.
Acharya Prashant : That’s the best you can do.
Why are you overestimating yourself?
We all want God; but do we ever trust Him fully?
But still we want Him.
That’s the best we can do. Fine.
Do you ever trust Him fully?
You trust, forget god, do you trust peace, or awareness or whatever?
You don’t. But still you want that, don’t you?
It’s ok, that’s the best the boy can do.
Do your best, and your best would be relative to yourself. In the absolute sense, even your best is no good. Your best, remember, can at best, bring you to the 99th floor. Which is ok, relative to the 50th floor, 99th floor is better. In terms of the absolute, 99th floor, doesn’t matter. It’s ok.
Do your best. That’s is your utter honesty.
You can’t be honest beyond a point. It’s beyond you to be honest beyond a point, and so it is alright. After all, right now you take yourself to be a creature of the floors. So, your honesty is also going to be limited. Like everything else, in the domain of the floor. Everything there is small and limited, so even honesty is also going to be small and limited. So it’s ok.
Offer ‘your’ best, offer ‘your’ best. ‘The best’ is not going to be possible for you. Offer ‘your’ best and then probably ‘the best’ might come.
Just do, I repeat, which is ‘your’ best, which is just a relative thing. If you are on the 2nd floor, your best is to move to the 3rd floor, if you are on the 80th floor, your best is to move to the 81st floor. And that’s your only responsibility that is the definition of dharma .
If you are on the 2nd floor, the dharma is to move to 3rd floor, not top floor. If you are on the 2nd floor, dharma is to move to 3rd floor. That’s it. Full stop. So, it’s easy.
* Question : Can we also say* that, we are a bit selfish?
Acharya Prashant : What do you mean by that?
* Question: Selfish as in if I have doubts, forget about* doubts, if you know that this is going to benefit you…
Acharya Prashant : Just listen.
Doubts are neither to be patronized nor be suppressed. Just keep them aside for a while and watch.
Question : Is it so that discipline includes jap, pranayam, path seva, dhyan, and satvik aahar (Jap, pranayam , reading scriptures, serving people ,attention , observation, eating good food)?
Patanjali Yoga Sutra is about discipline, it requires lot of efforts. I am more into listening and understanding. Is that sufficient Acharya Ji?
Acharya Prashant : Yes, it is sufficient. All that Patanjali says, is something that he is saying, right? And you listen to Patanjali, don’t you?
The same thing is happening here. It’s just that he presents to you, nicely, structured and codified system of teachings, so you know what he is saying, yam, niyam, dhyan, asan, pratyahar, pranayam, samadhi , you know all those things.
It’s a nice system that he has given you. Same thing happens here as well. Just as you listen to Patanjali, listen here as well.
Even with Patanjali, what would be needed?
Listening.
Similarly, listen here as well.
